i can tell you everything about being free

1. shooting pete yorn tonight. will scarlett johanssen make an appearance?

2. i find myself on craigslist looking for barters and quick ways to make money. i'm busting my ass to get a new, higher-end camera body (especially before austin city limits). either a canon 40d or a 5d--still debating. i'll be doing some webdesign for a friend in the next couple of weeks for $500. i'm going to do some website upkeep for a studio photographer in exchange for lighting lessons and use of resources. i put money away weekly. i need a benefactor, like pip had. who wants to donate to my cause?

3. i had an interview on monday. it went well. it'll be a lateral move within the company, but it'll get me out from under inefficient, manipulative management in a position which makes me want to tear my hair out because it's so fucking boring. the current problem is that we just have to wait for HR to post the position so we can get the ball rolling officially, but they're taking their sweet time. meanwhile, my inbox is filling up with inquiries and shit to "handle," and all i want to do is send an e-mail that says, "hey, just so you know, i'm taking the opportunity to learn new things and applying for this open position, so you can go fuck yourself." from what i understand, the transition should be swift and, because of this, i just can't convince myself to put my head down and go to it until the change happens. i feel like i'm banging my head against a wall.

4. photo shoot at the end of august which will result in a gallery show. i'm scared more than i'm excited. i have a very well-defined vision, but i don't know if i can pull it off.